What would Diddy do??

Sitting here tonight thinking to myself…What would Diddy do?

Let me give you a little glimpse into my heart and mind…

My Grandma Dee has been the most influential person in my life. She has been my constant cheerleader, my wise counselor, my giggle buddy, the best cook ever, and my personal shopper (Seriously, how did she always know what bra and pantie size I was from across the state?? I couldn’t even do that and I was always shopping with me!) She always knew just what to say or do to brighten my day… She was my best friend!

Several weeks ago, after a simple medical procedure and surgery gone wrong, her precious life came to a very abrupt end. She went to heaven, to be with Jesus, and try as I might I just can’t believe she is gone. I keep expecting her to peek her head around the corner and say, “Heeeey, Candie Girl!” in that sweet Grandma Dee voice. But all my wishing doesn't make it so. I don’t get to hold her hand again, I don’t get to hear her voice…And I am mad...and sad…and thankful for all of the memories I made with her, all at the same time. I have thought a thousand times about what I would have done differently if I could, and I am grateful to the Lord that I have no regrets. I called her often and visited as much as I could, My kids all had the pleasure of knowing her, She gave all of them their first bath like she gave me mine, we shared lots of laughs and a pile of tears together over the years, she always made time for me, made me feel like I was the most important person in the world, she always fought for the underdog and she loved people so well…She has left a beautiful legacy… but the one thing I keep coming back to is ‘I wish I had just one more Hug and kiss, to feel her soft cheek against mine’… She was an angel among us and Heaven is WAY better with her there! I can’t wait to squeeze her tight when I go there someday.

So, as I move through my day and carry on, learning about this “new normal” life I must lead without her here… I think, “I hope I am just like her when I grow up!”

Let’s LOVE each other well friends…That’s what Diddy would do.

-C